Almost

Almost Christmas time. Ick.

The tree is (sort of) up, cards are (sort of) done.
Shopping/wrapping finished.

No Christmas spirit in me at all this year. Were I able
to hit the delete key this year, I would. The older I get
the less it means to me. While I enjoy the part of giving,
getting isn't that great, and the hassle involved in the
whole sha-bang isn't worth the effort required.

The family is all going to be there. Ick again, and they
will (naturally) expect me to make it a nice-nice time
for them. One more crap-christmas and I swear I'll not
be "available" for another one.

My head is KILLING me today, I've had a headache since
around 4am, and it's just sitting there drilling away. Dare
I say "ick" again?

Sorry I havn't posted. Nothing going on worth noting I
suppose.

Be good, Santa is watching.

Der Schnee

Yes, it does feel like snow. US Airways dragged their big de-ice
vehicle across the ramp about two hours ago to be prepared. I
really don't want winter to come.

Christmas is about six weeks out. I'd pass on that too this year.
I for one will be more than pleased to see 2008 gone. What a
complete total crap year its been. It seems to me that next year
has got to be better. It's gotta be!

Today I almost slipped and told Lis what her gift was. It was
half way out of my mouth when I caught what was getting
ready to be said. Something tells me dragon lady has spied
it and has desire for it. The joke is on her!

While in the park today I saw a fawn nursing from its mother.
It seems quite late in the season for a fawn not to be weaned.
I hope the poor thing makes it through the winter. If we have
a bad one, it won't. With luck it will be a mild one, although I
have my doubts.

As of today I've seen no Christmas lights up. Normally the
red-necks in my neighborhood get a jump on the Holiday and
get their house all gussied up so Santa can find it.

My brothers house in Garrett County is almost done. Maybe
by the first of the year it will be ready to be occupied. Have
I mentioned they did NOT get air conditioning in the house?
He claims that it doesn't get routinely hot enough in the
mountains to justify the cost and need. We'll see. They had
snow last weekend while they were there. Nice (not)!

Okay- be good, for goodness sake!

Huh?

Today was a trip down to 'naptown (Annapolis) to
run a few errands. For those who haven't been to
down there for a while, things sure have changed!

Where Woodies used to be: High Rise Condo's.
There is a monster Target, albeit on the upper
floor of a parking garage (!?!), and what appears
to be a concentrated lot of shops and the like.

Then to Annapolis Harbor Center, where there
was no parking. None. I left.

Upon arriving home, a package had been delivered.
It was Lis' Christmas gift. Even I am impressed.
To say it's better than expected, well an understatement.
I've even emailed the merchant to tell them so. Yes,
even a text message to her to tell her how "neato"
it is, and that I may not be able to wait until Christmas.

My nephews came over today, and while not a believer
in reincarnation, the younger of the two is my Grandfather.
Looks like him, acts like him. .. the whole nine yards.

Okay- got company, gonna scoot . .

S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y

Let's see who get's what that is a reference to. Here is
a hint, I'm showing my age.

So the Christmas Shopping for the family is done. All
that is left is wrapping, and Christmas Cards. Ick.
My friends are still on the "to do" list - although I
know who is getting what. It's all quite simple, and
a list makes it work every year.

It's the first of November, and it's currently 75 degrees
out side. What's the deal with that? Not that I mind,
it is just odd.

Seb's birthday is Monday. So- Happy Birthday! I
sent him the perfect gift. (He knows, and that's all
that really matters, eh?) Hard to believe you're all
grown up. Remember that cold day at the train
station? One of the famous weekend trips I use to do!

My friend Connie tells me Frankfurt is all dressed up
for Christmas. No one (NO ONE) does Christmas like
the Germans do. I tell you, you haven't experienced
what the Holiday is like until you visit Germany right
before Christmas. It's Unreal.

I look forward to this year being over. Lord, I'll be 45
in a couple of months. How can this be? Seems to me
nothing has changed- except less hair, and more weight!

The election is in a couple of days. I've never ever been
uncertain as how to vote- yet this time I am. It may
take being at the booth to make the final decision.
Neither one does anything for me. The only up-side
is that in just a few short days it will all be over with and
no more NASTY stuff on the T.V. about who is lying about
what.

Tonight is fall back, the extra hours sleep will be greatly
appreciated. The drawback is that the sun will now go
down at 5pm. That is not a nice prospect. Winter is here
children, and it's gonna be hideous.

Everyone knows about the "problem" around here.
Well it was okay for about three weeks, and it's back
to the same old story. I'm so over it. Yes, I finally told
them "you were my friend and most trusted ally, and
now I don't even know you. You've changed more than
anyone I've known in my almost 45 years of life."
They need to go. Nothing left to salvage.

Okay- off I go................be good!!

Home . . . tomorrow

Recurrent training has just wrapped up. Thank God!
Tomorrow morning, home James! 0830 departure from
ATL to BWI. Right now, I'm just chillin' out.

It was nice to see Joanne (of Los Angeles fame) we had
a nice time just chewing the fat, and catching up.

Most of me is anxious to go home, but we all know the
challenges facing me upon returning. A herd of DC-10's
awaits me. One of which has been AOG for a week now.

Today I realized that Christmas is two months away.
Fortunately the shopping list is almost complete. Only
a few more little things to get, and then it's done.

I've been promised action on the "problem" at work.
Next week there should (better) be some action taken.
While the individual is being a semi-good-boy, the nasty
is starting to creep back. Part of me is sad this is happening
the other part relieved.

Okay- off I go.

Sadly, I'm back

So here we are back from almost three glorious weeks
at the beach. Yes, I miss it, and would be willing to go
out, get in the hond-er and drive back.

It's two weeks back now, and the situation is the same
with the problem individual. Today's conversation was
interesting. Almost got the feeling of an admission of
being out of control from them. It was very strange.
With luck things will change around here.

Summer is fleeting. The Osprey are all gone. The Egrets
have started to flock to the pond in Downs Park. Never
a good sign for the survival of summer. Once they start
fall can't be far off.

A few minutes ago I sent a text message to Lis to say "guess
who is getting sick?" C'est moi. The stress around here
combined with not sleeping the last several nights have begun
to take their toll. Hopefully it will be a short illness, although
it seems mine never ever are. Whatever it is is growing in my
head. Never ever a good thing.

The flight that should have left almost an hour ago is now leaving
in three. I'm underjoyed. (Yes, I know that is not a word.) The
hope was to go to bed early and with luck sleep this thing off.
Oh well, no rest for the wicked.

Okay, off I go. Happy now Lis?????

Sand, Sand, and Sun

I figured it's time to let you know how the beach is. Let me
tell you. It's quiet here. Peaceful- no phone, no airplanes,
no folks to bother me. It's so quiet.

Several times I've wondered to the beach. Well, okay, every
day I could! Today was a new beach, Pauley's Island Beach.
Normally I go to Huntington Beach State Park. While quite
by accident I've found the "locals" beach area- you can't
believe how nice the beaches are here. Clean. White "sugar"
sand, and the water is so nice and warm! When Tropical
Storm Faye was in the neighborhood, there were waves
high enough to surf. Even some shells to be found.

Last week was a trip to the Rice Museum in Georgetown. It's
about 18 miles away. The second time there, the tide was
extremely high, as in there was water in one of the parking lots!

No, I haven't done the tourist stuff. I have gotten fish taco's.
I have had soft-shelled-crabs. Most nights are a nice dinner
made here at the house. It's easier, quieter, and better food
than would probably be found locally. God Bless them, but
these folks don't know how to cook seafood.

Next week is back to work. Scheisse. I loathe the thought
of returning. From the stuff that probably hasn't been done,
to having to contend with the problem friend. That is something
that needs to be resolved. Soon.

In case you didn't hear, the trip down I got 38.85MPG!
Gas is also less expensive here, today in Georgetown it
was 3.38! While that is still a lot of money- it's better than
we were paying at the beginning of the summer, which, yes,
is over with this weekend.

Okay, time to scoot, and get the rest of the salt off of me from
the second trip to the beach............

Be good!

Count-Down

The "official" countdown to vacation has begun.
In a little over a week, I'll head south on I95 to
SC181. The drive is long, but well (and I do mean
well) worth it.

Tonight is the first channel mission from BWI in
a number of months for us. Tom is here with me
and will be doing a number of them soon. Good.
It's a nightmare working all night- and the the
phone all day. This week is "end-of-the-month"
time. I've started it, and it may not be as bad to
accomplish as I thought. That's a good thing.

The "problem" individual is back, and has not changed
at all. The time away was for naught. They can't
even look me in the eye. Yes, children, my friend
is officially gone. While it makes me sad and mad,
I acknowledge that he is "dead," at least the friend
part. Thankfully I'll be gone soon, so maybe just
maybe when I get back they will be gone. Never
could it be imagined someone I respected, trusted,
and believed in would morph into what is now
before me.

My Parents called me yesterday: "We're just
coming back from getting pedicures." I almost
dropped my teeth. It's hard to imagine my 75
year old Father getting his feet done. It's sort
of the "car wreck" factor- gross but you can't
help but want to know the details. Ick.

Have I mentioned Christmas Shopping? Yup,
it's well under way. Get it done. Get it done.
One less thing to mess with Once the Holidays
start rolling in.

Okay- gonna scoot. Behave!

Over

The last 30 days have been such a pleasure. Sure, the
days have been long and hard, but worth the effort of
it. (Is that proper English?)

Today that all stopped today, the "problem" returned.
First order of business was to start the process of making
things difficult for me. The test is tomorrow. I've played
my cards, and hopefully not too soon. Those who know
me, know my heart goes before my head. Tomorrow will
be the true test. Remain calm- keep control of what you
say and do.

It cuts me deeper than I can express the pain and hurt
that goes with what is imagined about me. I deserve better.
(FINALLY I'VE SAID IT) I don't deserve the treatment
received by this person. To say that they are under the
wrong impression, and totally incorrect.... 'nuff said.

My friends have been there for me today. Thank you
Lis, and Frank. Lis, what would I E-V-E-R do without
you? Honestly- what WOULD I do??

Two weeks from today, I'll be gone. Gott Sie Dank.
I'll be there this time two weeks from now. Sand,
suft, and lots-of-fun.

Okay- I need to scoot......

Be good!

Yeah,Yeah, Yeah.

So I'm not dead. Y'all know that already.

Where to start. How to end. How to finish what's been started.

First: Work has been a bear. It has forced me to become two
dimensional, as Craig Belmondo would say . . . A combination of
great pressures there, and my family, I've sort of shut down.
The last six or so weeks have been not just hard because of work,
but the troubled individual in my life has melted down, and is in
their own way missing in action. While it should no longer bother
me, and it's certainly not my fault, it still bothers me. I asked
for help for him- yet it repeatedly fell upon deaf ears. Those that
could have forced change refused. If there was some way to fix
it, I would. I can't. I know I can't. I can't get myself to accept
that someone so close to me has changed into someone I don't
know. On occasion the old person that was my friend appears.
Those occasions grow further and further apart.

Tom Brainsky has been a G-I-A-N-T help at work (thanks Tom)
he clearly can see what's going on and is trying to force some life
back into me. It's hard. It's my own fault. I've allowed work to
take over my life. It all goes back to what I think of myself, what
I think I'm worth. My fault, my problem, my issue to contend with.

In a month it's off to Murrells Inlet for two weeks away. With luck
it will help me clear some of the cob webs from my head, and aide
me in re-prioritizing my life. The drive to and from will be truly
beneficial. Being at the beach is a good thing.

This week had a unique event. Jeff, Lis, Tom, and I were all in the
office at the same time. It was as if the clock was turned back to
1999, and the olden days had returned. It was just funny seeing
all us together- and nothing else mattered. Lis keeps a certain
level of reality in my life- and refuses to allow me to drift too
far away from where I should be. She has her work cut out for
her. Don't know where I'd be without her though . . . . . .

There are heavy storms on their way in- a line of red appears
on the radar from New York State clear down the coast into
South Carolina. I should finish this before the storm hits: I
can hear the thunder on it's way in.

Too hot for sweaters

The blue sweater has been put away for the season,
or so I've been told.

Sorry it's been so long since my last post. Work has
been busy, the teeth have been making me crazy,
and then there is Travian.

Thursday I got a call that Zera Burgess has passed
away. I'll miss her. She was always nice to me, and
no matter what I asked her to get in Europe, it was
on the next trip. She fought Ovarian Cancer, and
has lost her battle. Rest In Peace. It's strange and
sad to lose a friend. It reminds me of the friend here
that has "died." That is always a source of great
sadness for me.

Tom has been a big help here at work. He's allowed me
to get some rest, and aided in reducing my stress level
while here. He leaves in a few days for training in PTC.
It will be "interesting" to see how things go while he
is away.

Ten more weeks until vacation. It's gonna be so nice
to be away, at the beach, and away from here.

Be good!

Four Hours To Go

Four more hours. The work day started a little after 9am.
It's now almost 1am . . the next morning. There is a lul
in the mess, so here I am.

Today was productive, Landing report was submitted tonight.
A live in, and ferry out too. The ferry out was literally full of
crew. 35 plus flight attendants! Thankfully it is now gone- and
just one more to do. Down to Pope- which reminds me of
V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N. The road south passes that exit on 95.
South Carolina, Exit 181... that is as far as I venture.

While waiting for the ferry to leave, I noticed how really green
everything is gettting. Like in fall, there are many different
colors out there. Yeah, they're all green- but one can easily
tell the trees apart this time of the year, as in fall.

Yesterday I gave Lis her Birthday gift (which is officially now-
today) - so HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYY!! She seemed pleased
with her gift. She can tell you . . Before I go home I'll send a
text message to wake her up. :)

Okay- let me get moving- be good my children!!!!!!!

Mr. Sandmans concrete truck

The sandman has been pouring concrete in my head for the
last several days. I wake up and my head is clogged and to
say it hurts- is an underestimation. The air is thick is crud
from pollen to little fuzzy things: they're all on the loose!

Spring is really here in the Free State. Green leaves have
started to appear. Winter is gone! The tomato, squash,
pepper, and kohlrabi seeds are now all healthy plants and
have begun to be adopted out. Early Girl is the variety of
tomato, and last year they were a screaming success.

Crab season has started. Finally the State of Maryland
has done something to restrict the harvest of females from
the bay. Southwest Airlines Cargo smells of dead crabs
already. Yup, spring is here!

We have a Cargo Trip out of here on Monday. It should
prove interesting to say the least. You know about as
much as I do! I do look forward to it, it will be an adventure
to say the least. One hundred twenty thousand pounds of
main deck cargo.

Okay- let me run, I'll try to be a better boy about writing!

Demise

For those of you who don't know, ATA Airlines shut down
yesterday. It was a sad day for everyone involved. Not
just their employees who certainly are suffering, but for
those of us who have worked around and with them over
the years. I remember their early days. What a fun bunch
of people to be around. Too bad that's gone; forever.

When leaving Downs Park this morning, an Osprey was
struggling to say in the air. It was carrying a fish almost
as big as it was. It must have gotten it out of the Magothy
and was taking it over to the nest in the bay. You forget
how big those birds are until you all but run into them!

Next week is gonna be a busy one. Multiple departures
on four days. Whether or not that holds, remains to be
seen.

Okay- off I go.....

Okay, already!

A certain woman in a blue sweater stopped by today to
yell at me for not blogging. I think she wore that sweater
just to tease me . . anyway.. Don't forget to charge that
phone!

After leaving the park from my morning walk, WTMD was
on the radio. They played a Thomas Dolby song (think now,
remember "She Blinded Me With Science") that I'd never
heard before. It sounded sort of Asian, but in reality it was
supposed to be a Southern influence. Sort of funny. So I
ordered the album off of Ebay today. It's odd how we hear
something or someone from our youth, and it brings back
a lot of (in my case) good memories. Those insane days of
the early 1980's.

The schedule this week went from empty to full literally
overnight. From one two to seven flights. Odd how that
happens. It's all good though. It keeps me out of trouble.
Not really, but you know what I mean.

My folks are due to return today or tomorrow. Ick. They
will be under foot for a while, and if I'm REALLY lucky
they will go south again in a few weeks until it's truly warm
here. If I had a place like they do, where they do . . I would
not rush back for ANYTHING. It's tax time and they have
doctors appointments to tend to. I'm glad their life has now
become what it is. Both of them worked all of their lives,
and now deserve to take it easy and do as they please.

Okay, off I go, 'abend!

TomTom

So I finally broke down and bought a TomTom GPS.
What did I use it for? To go to the cemetery. It's really
easy to use. Put in the address, and it talks you to where
you are going to. There is adequate warning for a turn,
and where you need to change lanes (keep left, keep right)
and even tells you when you're almost to the destination.
While there are still things I need to learn about it, it
appears to be almost idiot proof. That means I'll screw
it up.

Earlier today I went to K-Mart for some stuff that was
on sale. They actually had it. The thing I hate about that
place is they NEVER EVER have enough registers open.
What's the deal with that? Anyway- I took my items to
the front of the store...... huge lines. Crap. So I hear a
woman yell "five items are less come to customer service."
It was like winning the lottery! After ringing me up she
put my items in a trash bag. You know what I said: "Are
you calling me trash?" She thought I was serious. They
were completely out of bags- so they used trash bags for
purchases. So now I remember why it's been six months
since I was in a K-Mart.

Tomorrow is Easter. It's the last time for the next one-
hundred-fifty-years that it will be this early. No to mention
Passover is also this weekend. I've noticed some things
were closed today on account of it. Happy Easter everyone.
Enjoy the day with your family!

'Abend!

Germination

The tomato and squash seeds I put in last week have begun
to sprout. The heating pad (for plants) has done it's job maybe
too well! Pepper seeds are in, but await their turn on the heat.
Kohlrabi goes in next. Saturday I got herb plants at Homestead
Gardens in Davidsonville. It is the ultimate in Garden store.

My nephew's birthday party was Saturday. My brother and
I went together and got him a family membership to the
Baltimore City Zoo. When he got it, he had NO idea what it
was. It had to be explained to him. Poor kid, I just don't
know how he's going to make it. My brother refers to it
as "vapor lock."

Sunday is Easter. Where is my family? Everywhere but
home. Which translates into it's gonna be a nice quiet day!
No cooking and cleaning up for me! Funny how the meal
most folks have on Easter is ham. Does anyone else see
the odd humor in that? Think about it. I am glad that
my folks are enjoying their life in South Carolina, and that
it is a comfortable easy way of living for them.

Okay- time to get ready to push a freighter. Thankfully
we have a good crew!

Spring Returns!

Even at 2230, it's 50 degrees outside! This means that the
plants/trees/shrubs/flowers making their way into spring
are being extremely successful! Just in the last few days
the changes have been amazing. From the two osprey on
the nest, to the Bradford Pear trees getting their buds wide
open, I'm ready for warm, warm, warm!

This has been an interesting week. A zillion changes, a
vendor yelled at me, then the next day begged me for a
favor, the parent/holding company of the one I work for
had a major shake-up, and I've heard from someone that
no one else has for six months. However the highlight has
been the problem friend.

Without going into detail it's been quite the week. I do
have to say it's been really great having my friend back,
even though I am EXTREMELY cautious, and take each
thing with a grain of salt. I did see something that was
quite shocking, that their opinion of me was different and
better than I ever thought. It was not just shocking but
a revelation. They had said that I wasn't the problem . .
Without saying what, it was really, REALLY nice to see.

Tomorrow is my nephews 13th birthday. I can so clearly
remember the Sunday morning he was born. So many
things are in my life don't have exact dates attached, but
this? No question. From driving to the hospital to being
there when they came out of the delivery room to say
"It's a boy!" I remember it all.

My older brother is coming over tomorrow morning.
Without a doubt, we'll get in trouble together!

Be good!!!!!!!!!! OH!, and 'abend!

Spring Fever!

Not that kind!

Today I went to the Farmers Coop in Glen Burnie, and
got both tomato and squash seeds. Spring is almost here
and I just couldn't take it anymore! After spending fifty
dollars, the deal was done. What did I buy? 50 peat pods,
squash and tomato seeds, a seed heater (30 dollars!), and
a little plastic green-house thing to hold it all. Yes, the
seeds are in and the the heater plugged in. I just couldn't
help myself.

After the trip to Glim-burney, I went to Wagners to get
church keys for Pete. What is a church key? Think giant
can opener. I've also ordered some oil can spouts- I don't
ever want a skydrol bath again. After last week, I realize
that even though it's not my responsibility to be involved
with maintenance, it is so important to get involved when
necessary. If we need to move a plane- we need to move
a plane . . . .

Tom stopped by the office today avec la wife. It was the
first time I've seen her since they got married. They appear
to be quite happy, even though Tom insists on staying in a
hotel (joke)--- Good for them! You kids need to move back
to Baltimore, set up house, and dare I say . . have a baby!
I've talked other people into it (and got a God-child out of
it)- so you're next.

Last summer while in South Carolina, I got a ring set with
old mine diamonds. My intention was to have them reset
into something more contemporary. One of the ladies at
church said not to touch it. I think I'll follow her advise.
OH, yes, Lis, you have an old mine cut diamond. It's one
of the "babies" you have. While on the subject: What in
the world would I do without you?

Today I saw four deer in the park, an osprey, two swans,
and lots of ducks. The trees and vines are starting to get
ready to "do leaves" and if it keeps warm- we'll truly have
spring in short order.

Hey Seb, where are you? You seem to be the missing family
member right now. Gonna call you on Saturday.... kindly be
available~ :)

Be good my children!

Almost Tuesday

What a weekend. Worked both days. The weather went from warm
to frigid. Whacked my head good on a DC-10 door, went out with
friends in Annapolis, changed time, and definitely didn't get enough
sleep.

Sunday (almost 2 days ago now!) I went to see "Carmen" by the
Annapolis Opera. It was almost surprising to see how similar
Italian is to French, and how much of it I understood. The one
thing that impressed me the most was how really beautiful the
city of Annapolis is. Day time and night time it's just really nice
to be there. I guess we take what we have for granted.

My head is still sore (hurts to wear a hat!)- and my right leg is
sore- and right foot quite bruised. You know they called early
this morning from HDQ to ask if the aircraft was damaged. I
will leave it up to you to figure out what my two word response
was. It was all in good fun, because everyone had a good laugh.

The crocus's are in full bloom in the yard. Yellow, white, purple,
and light blue all have their little heads up and are in full swing.
Some of the other trees and plants are getting leaves too. It
really wasn't a bad winter all in all. No major storms, no big
power outages, and normally mild temperatures. Soon it will
be warm all the time!

I got the call today that we may do another adventure into the
unknown in a few weeks. "Get your passport ready" is what
the message was. We'll see! Never been to any of these places
either, but I'd like to see at least two of them!

Okay- be good!

Winds-day

After having seen the almost disastrous landing by LH in HAM
last week, I can relate- the winds today were unreal. When I
left the house early this morning, there was water in the frame
of the storm door- Now, remember the door sits back from the
roof by about four feet. The net result of the storm was that
the sky was very blue, and there were little white caps out in
the bay. The Osprey should be back any day now. I can't wait!

Today was uneventful, except for the trip to FedEx- the person
who normally works the office wasn't there. The poor woman
who was was freaking out. So I ended up going to the facility
on Hammonds Ferry Road- - so I just got on the beltway and
took the long way home. It just made it easier.

Dinner tonight was salsa chicken with saffron rice- it was
quite nice. I made enough so I could have it again tomorrow.
It's hard cooking for one- and seeing all the the soup is gone...
well had to do something-

Okay- got a kitchen to clean up.... be good, and 'Abend!

Warm again

Today was the second day in a row when the weather was
surprisingly warm. it's1840, and the temperature is still 61
degrees outside. Spring can't wait to get here. I can't wait
for it either.

Have I mentioned the parents are not returning until after
Easter? My opinion is that the beach has gotten them. After
two years of nagging them they need to go to the beach,
they finally have. It makes me happy that they are enjoying
their lives. In two days they will be married for 54 years.
(Not to mention it's Lisa's birthday-) My real desire is for
them to enjoy the time time they have together. Murrells
Inlet has been so good for them. I'm glad they are enjoying
their time there, and I wish them many more happy years
there.

The last week or so I've been playing "Travian." It's been
a lot of fun- and has helped repair a damaged friendship.
Without going into detail, it's like the olden days. It makes
me happy regardless of the sacrifice needed to make it
work.

Seb told me today he is quitting BMW. He will do the thing
that makes him happy. Good for him! Finally a member of
the family "gets it." While he knows he'll never be (financially)
rich, he knows he'll be happy. That's all that matters.

Okay- got stuff to do. Be good, and 'Abend!

Mundee

That's Baltimore speak for "Monday."

Yeahhh, 'at's right. 'at's 'ow we say'ze it.

Tonight, WBAL TV 11 referred to an A320 as a (ready??)
"Wide bodied" aircraft. News to me! The rest of the news
is equally as unbelievable. There is an apartment fire in
Woodlawn. John Ringling would be proud of the reporting
tonight. It's almost perverted. HELLO!?!?! There are a
few of us that are not stupid, that have more than a 6th
grade education.

Today I've had three people call me regarding the fact that
my brother is the Branch Chief of the National Archives of
the United States of America in Washington D.C. Haven't
you children been paying attention? I mean he's been doing
that job for a number of years, and clearly does his job very
well. He's a succesfuly published author, and very efficient
at what he does.

The "friend" spent more time with me today than in the last
four months. It was like turning the clock back eight months.
Strange, bizarre, and surreal are the only way to describe this
situation. Don't me wrong. I am both pleased and grateful
that this happened today. The person has been both generous
and helpful today. It is like the olden days. My frien "UN" has
offered to give me a spine.

I was going to write something that the "secret admirer" would
squeal like a pig over- so it won't happen. Allow me to reiterate
the fact that you not only disgust me- but the fact you need to
keep you mouth shut.

Okie-doke, time for me to go . . 'Abend!

Mahch

Isn't that how a New-Englander would say it?

This past week I've been cooking the stuff I was simply
unable to resist at Giant. Roast beef and today chicken
thighs. The cow went to Lis, and tonight the thighs
turned into chicken and wild rice soup. While this is
my own recipe, I gotta tell you, it's "the bomb!" One
thing I am careful of is not to salt it until the very
end. Those who have had it have wanted more AND
the recipe. No recipe, sorry.

Yesterday was spent with my brother and the boys.
We went everywhere. Five places to get groceries for
the month for him. When in B.J.'s they had ipod shuffle's
for too cheap. I got one. This bugger is TINY. It does all
I think I want from an ipod. It will shuffle what is loaded
on it- so . . what more do I need. It's teeny-tiny too! Not
to mention it's my favorite color: green. I've loaded one
album on it- and many more will follow. The hondo has
a jack to plug it in too!

This week there are several events to mention. Lisa is
gonna be as old as me. My parents have an anniversary,
and my brother has a birthday on the 8th. So, Lisa, what
is it gonna feel like to be as old as me?? LOL~~ It's not
fun being "old." Oh yeah- you've been at the pit for 25
years this month too. Remember when we were kids and
the stuff we used to do? Driving on the wrong side of the
road. Mocking individuals for not being able to say "ash.'
Obviously I could go on forever . . . . .

Seb has been sick- I've emailed and sent a text message.
No answer. He's a true family member and ignores me.
:) Poor little bugger. Hope you're feeling better. Really!
There is a good chance I'll be in your "neighborhood" this
year.

On a happy note, the "kids" are staying in Murrells Inlet
until AFTER Easter!! I am so happy! They are enjoying
the time they have there. My Aunt and Uncle from Warwick,
NY are planning on visiting in about two weeks, so YEE HA!
They're staying south!!

Okay- try to be good, and more later!!! 'abend!

One Week

Back from Africa, essentially for a week.

Today was a unique day. One of the best in the world took
me aside to say " bid your time- don't do the nasty nasty
thing you had intended to do, you won't regret it."

Well . . . . . the problem person was like the friend I had
about eight months ago. It was like time had been rolled
back, almost scary. It felt really good to see that what I
thought to be dead, was in fact still alive. How to explain
it is beyond me. When I'm ready to attack with all my
might, the person I used to know appears, as if by some
force of magic. It's almost as if they can read my mind
and know it's time to "back down."

M. Pardew called me tonight. She's about as dumb as I am.
She misses absolutely nothing. The only person who I live
in fear of. Imagine, me totally intimidated by someone.
From the first thing she said to me " Do you have a pen"
to this very day, she is one person who I place respectful
fear in front of E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G else. I tell you,
even the bible tells you not to mess with her. It's all part
of the attraction. Few people can control me as can she.

Oddly enough, someone is sending me IM's for the first
time since October . .

'Abend!

Day two

Second day back, feeling much better from yesterday.
Shall we say it was a trying day? It was. The day was
spent in the house hiding.

Today TWO people at church said "You went to Africa
with the President, didn't you?" HELLO?? What planet
do you live on?? Yes, my children, I was with the one
and only President of the United States of America in
Africa. Did anyone else miss that fact? Considering my
itinerary was the same as El Presidente, one should
assume/make the connection that is what I was doing
there. Can one think of ANY reason to go to Monrovia
other than following the President? I certainly cannot.

Have I ever mentioned I miss the '80's? Well, I do.
Those were such fun (and wild) days. When I think of
the things we did (SHUT UP LISA)- and the fact we
are still around to talk about them. Thankfully there
is youtube to track down all the old MTV stuff to watch
and listen to. I remember going to Joni's house to watch
"World Premiers" of music video's. Something tells me
that doesn't happen any more. Perhaps we were innocent
or naive, but it was different in those days. Many of the
pressures associated with today didn't exist in those days.
Georgetown . . . Luxembourg, Greece, Scotland . . . an
occasional stint at something insane..... I want those
days back. Madness, Duran Duran, the Go-Go's , ABC,
and many many more.

If I knew then what I knew now: Life would be VERY
different. Something tells me none of you would be
victimized by me!!

Seb: hope your feeling better. It's been quite the week.

Guten Abend!!!

Return

We're home in one piece from Africa. Thank you
for those that called, emailed, and sent text messages.
It was a good trip, and something that most folks
will never experience. The two things that stick-out
the most were Rwanda, and the pumpkin soup in
Tanzania.

Two days ago in Accra, we did a little shopping, and
I bought a piece of Kinte Cloth. It's really amazing
looking. It was NOT inexpensive, but it's so unusual
in the pattern and colors. While there is no practical
use or place for it, it serves as a reminder of a wild
"different day, different country" trip. I will do a recap
in a day or so to go over some of the gory details.

I can say that Liberia is a place I haven't a desire to
visit again- after being there twice in one day! It
would be nice to go back to Tanzania. It was so
relaxing there. Quite, peaceful, a nice breeze, and
of course, pumpkin soup. The staff was so moved
by the tip we left for them. Talk about being guilty:
We left them about ten dollars a piece. What we
waste each week on coffee and gum. They each make
about two dollars a week. Do the math.

I emailed Lisa that I'd like her to look a the memory
card from the camera and do what she can with
the pictures I've taken. We'll see.

When I got home last night, I had dirt in my pockets
and hair. It was from the stuff the helicopter and
AF1 stirred up in Monrovia!

Be good!

Kigali, Rwanda

Yesterday was Rwanda day. We flew from Tanzania over to Kigali.
The field was small and extremely remote. Not the place you want
to break down, or crash land.

Upon arrival the area residents ("natives" sounds so nasty.) were
awaiting the arrival of W. When the 747's rolled in, they had their
drums and dancers ready. They drummed, sang, and danced until
the "official" time when the President got off of the plane.

They began to play "The Star Spangled Banner." I almost lost it.
Kigali was one of the most moving places I've ever been. Over
eight hundred thousand people lost their lives there. I surmise
this is what visiting a Nazi "camp" must feel like. Part of me
thinks that this couldn't have happened in this beautiful, and
seemingly peaceful area. To hear our/that song- and be reminded
of home (and literally home- B-more), was extremely memorable.

Last night we went to the bar area to hang out- Bob Geldof was in
there - poor dude. You know the crew mobbed him . . .

Okay- time to go get some stuff for the boys. Try to behave
today........

Dar Es-Salaam

Not really, we're two hours north of the city at a little resort
on the Indian Ocean. Last night I got my feet wet, so I could
say "I've been in the Indian Ocean."

We had to go to the embassy to get cash, and saw W's motorcade
roll out to fetch him from the airport. Funny seeing cars with DC
plates on them.

The weather is very warm here but- there is a stiff ocean breeze.
From my room, the view is one of thatched roofs and palm trees.
The lizards seem to keep the bugs in check. I took a picture of a
lizard going to town on ants out in the hall the other day.

It really is nice and quiet here. I fully understand the attraction
of being somewhere where it's just laid back. Not even in South
Carolina is it this laid back. If it didn't take a whole day to get here,
and then a two hour car ride on the wrong side of the road....
I would come back. It's very clean. The people are very VERY
polite, and the food is actually good. Right now I can smell
a curry someone is making for lunch. My mouth is watering.

Okay- the connection here is very slow, so I will sign off.
Tomorrow we blast of to Rwanda. That, my friends should be
interesting!

Bloomin' Crocus'

The white and yellow crosus' are blooming out in the yard.
All it takes is a little warm snap (like we had last week)- and
bang~ flowers in the yard. This means Spring may be just
around the corner.

At 0430, I awoke in a panic. How prepared am I for the
impending trip? After going over what has been done:
I'm as ready as can be. While I still need to finish packing,
that can't be accomplished until the schedule has been
finalized. That should "go down" in the next day or so.

Now, y'all know I am not a youngster. Y'all know I've been
livin' here for my entire life. For the first time in my life,
I never ever remember the politicos being here in Maryland
to push for their camps. Seems to me, that for once, the
seventh state is being recognized for what is here. It's
always something that amazes me. We may not be a big
state- but we do have some things going on here that
definetly deserve a look-see.

B.G. & E. are building a new smoke stack at Brandon
Shores. Last week when I saw it, I just thought it was
a perception thing making it look so big. Yesterday
I was on 695 at Wilkens Avenue, and could see the
monster from there. It is NOT an optical illusion-
it's a new standard in big smoke stacks!

Tonight's dinner will be an International Culinary
delight. Nothing from the 'States. Ready? Go!
British Baked Beans, Italian tomato paste, Israeli
garlic and basil, and the "crowning jewel" lamb
hot-dogs from Iceland. Being a lamb FREAK,
it's easy for me to go crazy over them. Saturday
night I had lamb in Annapolis, and some great
(and I do mean G-R-E-A-T) Margaux. Odd how
I get dragged into food prep. Dinner, dessert,
and vegetables all ended up as my responsibility.
Good thing I can cook!

Friday I went to the car show with Jeff. Even though
we haven't seen each other in a year, it was like we
had been together 15 minutes ago. He's as close to a
child as I'll ever get. After the car show we went to
Batemans in Severna Park (A.K.A. Snootville)- where
Kym hooked us up, and we met Miss Rachel. No one
ever wonders why they keep us separated. We are
capable of getting into trouble no matter where we
go. Miss Rachel didn't dissapoint. Thought I would
need to restrain her. It was fun.

Thank-God the primary is tomorrow. I want them
to all just SHUT-UP.

Be good my children!

Big Brother is watching

It appears I have a secret admirer. A person at HDQ
has been reading my blog. When they read the last
post, like a fog horn went and spread the word that
I knew about the award.

Allow me to thank you for ruining the day for not
just me, but for everyone I work with that were so
disappointed that the surprise had been lost.

Thank you for allowing me a night devoid of sleep,
and for the interrogation I received several times
regarding who it was that slipped up. Unlike you
I kept my mouth shut and will continue to do so.

I hope it made you feel super good to destroy what
should have been a very special day for me. It makes
no difference to me that you read this. Often it is
easier for me to write what I think, rather than saying
them.

Be certain: Big Brother is watching.

Off to Hartsfield

Tomorrow is off to Hartsfield, Atlanta, Georgia for those
that don't know.

Now, I was told it was for a meeting with the folks from
the White House Charter. While that has since been
added, it was originally for a COMPLETELY different
reason.

World Airways has a program called "Ambassador
Star" that is given out each quarter. Guess who won
the award? It was supposed to be a surprise, but
someone let it slip, and when pressed, admitted that
I'd won the award. It comes with a plaque, a pin, and
a five hundred dollar cash award. I just want the cash!
The award is given to the person who shows the
spirit of World Airways. ME?? Uh huh.

So I gotta be a good boy and act surprised! We'll see.
EVERYONE knows I am loathe to be surprised. Few
things irritate me more than a surprise. Don't like 'em!

I'm still clogged up. It seems that I can't kick this thing.
Part of me thinks it must be some sort of allergy. Who
knows.

Okay- gonna call U.N. and with luck sleep again tonite!

Be good!!!

It's Official

In 9 days it's off to Africa for me. This will be trip number 3,
and fortunately not repeating any of the previously visited
cities. While not looking forward to doing any of this, I do
know it will be "beneficial" for me to go. In fact, I believe
that was the actual word used.

Still not feeling well. Gotta be better by Wednesday, as
they're flying me to ATL to do the first meeting with the
Charter Broker. It's gonna be a down and back- that
makes me VERY happy. The level of service and demand
on the crew will be quite high. This is the first trip in
a long time where we (World) have provided this many
people to support a trip like this. The times are goofy,
and the schedule is hectic- but whatever.

Today I dragged out the "good" World Phone. I plan
to take a back-up phone too. Not gonna take any
chances whatsoever. Find the passport, camera, and
the pepto! Africa, here I come!

OH, and it's nice and quiet around here since the
"problem" left for Seattle!

Out to Africa

It appears that in a few weeks I'll be off to Africa.
We'll see. The last several trips planned this far out
have not happened. Athens, London (twice) Rome,
none happened- planned too far out.

Right now it's 9 days in Africa. Go to the White
house web site to see what/where the trip is going.
So far I can think of about 4 folks who have backed
out of it.

Today was a visit to Downs Park, then off to 'Nap-
town. Came home for "about 20 minutes" crashed
and slept for almost 4 hours. Guess someone
needed some sleep. Now, will I sleep tonight?
This cold has really been a thorn in my side.

It's been a pretty ordinary day so far . . . . .

Poor Dick.

Last night I had a "discussion" with the problem child.
After some heated exchange, several things were brought
to light.

Said individual admitted:
1) their life is a mess
2) their financial situation is a mess
3) their marriage is a mess.
4) None of what is going on is my fault.

I already knew all of this, and more. Many things can
be said about me, however stupid is NOT one of them.
Tom thought we are gonna go at it at first- but things
calmed down. We had a decent discussion. Allow me to
say that this person will continue to degrade until they
realize that they must treat people the way they want
to be treated.

Saying that, maybe that is part of my problem. I really
do try to treat folks the way I want to be treated. For
the most part, people don't comprehend what that
means. It's interesting to see the guilt on someones
face when something nice is done for them. Even on
"the day" it was clear to see that they were wholly
unprepared for what they were facing, and that they
had dropped the ball. Part of me still feels sorry.
The other part loathes the bastard. Gott sie Dank
I'll be free from this burden for the next three weeks.
Said individual is not happy about being away for so
long. They are the only one who will not be pleased
by their absence.

Certainly what I've just put to writing once again shows
the character flaws I posses. Sometimes it is rewarded.
I received a reward from someone for something done
over a month ago. Yes, it was surprising. It was more
than appreciated. Funny how the occasional little things
we do have such impact. Todays show of appreciation
is the kind of thing that makes the struggle worth it.

Someone tried to break into the house today. Too bad
they didn't realize the door was steel. All the exterior
doors are steel. Seems to me someone wasted their
effort. When taking the trash out is when the attack
was discovered. Even had they been able to gain access
to the garage, the door from the garage to the house was
dead-bolted.

Well, my children, there is laundry to do, a kitchen to
tidy up, and other house chores to be accompished.
Be good, be safe, and take care..........

sick

Yup, still sick. It's nasty having this kind of cold. For
some reason I always get a doozy. Never a 3 day cold-
they always last 7-10 days. Tom invited me to go on
a plane ride with him- but me not feel good enough
to do that. Tarnation!

Now, y'all should be proud of me. Yesterday I cornered
someone about blame shifting, and refusing to accept
responsibility for their actions. Today was "you never
cease to amaze me at how inconsiderate you can be,
nothing is ever your fault, is it?" No response. It is
nice to not have to worry about hurting someone's
feelings. However, said individual hasn't been nasty
since I've changed how they are dealt with.

The parents mail is off to them via FedEx. How can
anyone not just love FedEx? I've never ever had a
single problem with them, unlike UPS and God forbid
DHL. It just make sense to handle the mail going to
South Carolina this way. It's still expensive, but so
much easier than trying to forward it, send it via the
post office....

My brother was going to Garrett County this weekend
but probably will not go now- the winter weather mix
called for will keep him here. Did you hear that a
tractor trailer was blown over today in Western Maryland?
Apparently it was empty- and the wind gust just threw it
over.

Just got another "Lou Kiminsky" phone call. I should
start charging that man!

Off I go to get ready for the arrival!

CGE & ESN

My older brother (Dr. Heger) came over today, and we ended
up on the Eastern Shore. First to Cambridge (CGE), then
Easton (ESN). The main street in Cambridge was still closed
due to the fire. We drove down High Street to look at the
houses that were built in the early 1800's. Then to East New
Market- and then Easton. I really like Easton. It would be
possible to imagine living there. All that is needed is a big
ole pile of cash. One thing on the agenda this year is to spend
the night at the Tidewater Inn. My brother keeps talking
about the crab salad in the restaurant there. If something
comes to the Avalon Theater I want to see. That will be the
key to making it happen.

Netflix sent me an email the first movie rental should show
up on the 25th. It did. It's not really cheap, but SO easy
to manage. All that needs to be done is stick it in the mailer
and in the mailbox. If only I could remember what the
next movie is that I requested. Oh well.

My head is still really stuffed up. I think it's as much as
an allergy. It comes and goes. Right now it's here. One
problem is that I've not been sleeping well. One of the
problems is that around 7pm, I fall asleep for about
an hour.

I had a date tonight, but neither of us are feeling well.
Funny how we exchange text messages. She doesn't
feel well, I don't feel well, so we'll go another day. We
have known each other a long time. Now we're gettin'
together. (No this is NOT an airport person, so none
of you know her.)

Lis brought me some hot dogs. Now if you have never
had lamb hot dogs; you don't know what you're missin'!
I gotta make some Shepherds Pie soon too. Lamb rocks!

Okay- time to start some dinner. Comfort food. While
I shouldn't be eating Mac & Cheese . . I'm gonna.

Thanks for your support. I still need it.

A New Day

When I woke up today, I felt lighter being free from
having to worry about offending someone, walking on
eggshells, or having them yell at me. I think it has
been made pretty clear that there will be no opportunity
for anything but what is expected around here. No more
favors, exceptions, or allowances. None. Kein.

It may turn out to be a good gift. It may end up being
the best gift. I stood up for what was owed to me, and
when a favor was hinted at, it was ignored. It was
nice just saying what was to be done, and no argument.
Yes. I almost caved, but then reminded myself, "you
didn't make this mess, don't clean it up."

I also asked for the money owed me to be returned.
"Oh I forgot." Liar. The instructions are to have it
to me by Monday. The days of kindness and
consideration are gone.

The ladies I walk with took me out to dinner last night.
It was nice seeing them the way they normally look-
you see we all look like bums when we are in the park.
Kay Frederick is truly a STUNNING woman. WOW!

My brother sent me (in a birthday card) a post card
from the mid 1940's. It is a painting of "Gov. Ritchie
Highway between Baltimore and Annapolis, Md."
It looks like the stretch between Winchester Road
and Route 50. Anyway, on the back this is what it says:

"Hi Alma,

I am so tired I can hardly wiggle but suppose I'll make
it. It's awfully cold here but I suppose it's as cold there.
I'm going out ona man hunt in a couple of hrs.

By Now 'Daisy' "

The back of the card reads:

"The Governor Ritchie Highway which runs between
Baltimore and Annapolis is a thoroughly modern
concrete speed highway bordered by rolling hills and
picturesque countryside."

My how times have changed! I avoid the road from
695 to Maryland Route 10. To say this person knows
every possible way to avoid using that road, no matter
how out of the way, is an understatement.

Glad today is over. Glad it went as well as it did. Glad
that several folks called to see what was what. Glad
that I had the resolve to hold my ground. Glad that
someone knows the "gig is up."

Time to sine off and work on killing this cold.

Geburtstag

Today's the day. Thank all of you who called sent cards,
and emails. It meant a lot to me.

Today's the day. The "problem" friend didn't even say
word-one. Now comes the time to break ties with them.
Is there a chance for redemption? Doubtful. Do I want
them as a friend even if they get their act together? I
don't know. I've got a "kicked in the head by a mule"
headache. Sick to my stomach. Yet, I feel before I leave
here I need to say something to them. Perhaps "I got
the message loud and clear." Everyone tells me that
they don't deserve my friendship, and perhaps it is now
the time to put that into place.

I got treated to El Salto for lunch today- and tonight
dinner with friends. Sadly I won't be good company.
It feels like someone died. For some reason I think
lunch wants to be returned too.

A little bird told me that I may be tapped for a "special
project" soon. While I don't know what, when, or where,
it's-a-comin!

Now is the time I'm gonna really need you guys. I hope
you'll be there for me. My family isn't around. One of
my best friends is gone. I'm kind of alone right now.

FUNNY!!

Today I've received a lot of "good luck tomorrow" mail
and calls. Odd, n'est pas?

Seems to me whatever happens, happens, nothing I can
do or say that will change things. In a perfect world, things
would go well, and "said individual" would capitulate and
do everything to salvage what's left of a friendship. In the
present world, nothing is expected. When one refuses to
accept culpability for their actions, regardless of how
egress they may be, there is a problem. I feel sorry for
"said individual" because their life is so out of control, I
fear that they have no idea how to salvage what's left.
My friend has made some poor decisions, hastily made
others that have put them in an unenviable position. If
asked I would be able to fix several of them by calling in
some OLD favors.

You all know the story. Each of you know the situation.
Everyone knows what is going on. My situation is this:
I've done everything I can. I've gone the extra (1100)
miles. Each day I make an attempt. Poor person has
all but lost himself. Last winter I was the same way-
so I got help. Please God let him get the help he needs!

Thank you to Seb (extra thanks-you alway seem to know
what to say to me!!), Tawana Furbush, My older brother,
Lis (for watching out for me), Michele for dragging me out
last night, and Tom for the nice email today. The birthday
cards were well received! My brother sent me a post card
of "Governor Ritchie Highway: from the early days of the
road. It wasn't until I read the back of the card to realize
that folks have been pigs for a long time!

The evening is getting ready to set in. Let's seewhat happens!
More tomorrow.........

Ribena

Having today off, I wandered to Annapolis.

First stop: Trader Joe's. (Like that is a surprise!)
It was there or the supermarket. After getting the
standard supplies, the Punjab eggplant was in the
cart. Tabuli, chickpea salad, tzatzki, and dolmas
were in the cart. I even got to enter the "recycle
raffle" for using my own cloth bags. KEWL.

Next: Chadwicks. When you walk in and the person
behind the counter refers to you as "the ribena man"
you know you spend too much time there. The lady
there is getting to know me and has started actually
talking to me!

Stopped for gas on the way home, and those dolmas
all seemed to disappear before making it home- and
then Punjab Eggplant for lunch. Just spicy enough!
Checked my email (via wireless connection from the
breakfast room)- and had a look at the weather.
With luck just rain.

I checked with stores earlier. "Be glad you're not here."
..... I already know that!

Be good!

U.N.'s request

What a day.

First: I'm supposed to be off. Schedule changes have precluded
this., 274 is coming in from YYZ at midnight 30 (0530Z)- and
Customs is cool with it. If the plane is late- oh well.

A certain "reader" has requested he be referred to as U.N. it's
done. He asked me about the problem friend. My response to
him made it clear: "would you do that with a brother??" Now
it's clear.

Everyone says the problem friend will fail the test in three days.
Part of me wants that to happen- the other part of me wants
the "test" to be passed with flying colors. Right now I don't
really know what I want. One half wants this person to to fail
to allow grieving, and closure. The other half wants to salvage
what was once their. Imagine this: your brother has died, yet
each day you see his ghost. How would you contend with this
problem??

Tomorrow the forecast calls for "der schnee." God forbid.
Seems to me spring better get here soon. I'd be pleased if
it arrived on Thursday- talk about a gift!

Be good!!!!!!

Next three off

Sunday January 20, 2316Z

Guess who feels like crap. Queasy stomach, and don't want to eat.
Whether it's something I ate, or whether or not I'm getting sick.
who knows.

The next three days are off days. The house needs a good clean,
I need some away time from work, and this is the time to do so.
Today the laundry got caught up, folded up, and put up. One less
thing for me to contend with.

Both planes are late again today. the 0645L arrival will be in at
2240L. The 1430 arrival will be in at 2345L. So nice. My plan
is to be out of there by midnight. So in about an hour I'll go in
and get some stuff together to make things easier for the help.

There are four days until the deadline for the problem friend
is here. Based on their behavior this weekend, I doubt they
will make it. I just need to grieve the loss and be done with it.
What makes it difficult is that the person isn't "dead"- just the
person I used to know.

Time to get ready to go.

Saturday

Due to the "snow-storm" in Atlanta, aircraft 804 is many
hours late. Once again. I've done something nice for the
"problem friend"- and was punished for it. It's almost
finished. Five days. I'll be gone for three of them, so
there will be time for a reflection and a "cooling off" period.
Mark my word, it will be the end.

The parents called me yesterday, how difficult is it for them
to take their address book to South Carolina? Each year
they manage to forget it? Unreal! It will be making the
FedEx journey this coming week. It's so nice not having
them under foot.

Seb sent me the link to his blog overnight. It's auf Deutsch.
Lordy, it's hard for me to read. He did it on purpose to make
my one brain cell work harder. That boy manages to challenge
me on a regular basis. He's too smart for his own good. (Much
like the problem person) The last phone call from him still
resonates in my head.

Okay, time for me to close, be good @ Guten Abend.

Stop Already!

It's been snowing since 1100, it's now 1400, and still it comes
down. The Hond-o has been cleaned off twice. Where in blazes
is spring? All I can think about is planting some tomato seeds!

When preparing to leave Downs Park today, we saw an immature
Bald Eagle. Very cool. In about two months the Osprey will be
back from the south, signaling the beginning of SPRING! It can't
get here soon enough for me!

While grazing Youtube.com today, I ran across an old song that
had to have been written for me. Tori Amos' "Crucify." It says
"Nothing I do is ever good enough for you." Seven days left for
redemption. If you see a mushroom cloud, you'll know what
happened.

Got a bird coming in from Leipzig in about two hours. I wonder
how 'bad' it will be. Lord only knows.

Perhaps some more later....................

Gut Schlaff

The memory-foam-mattress arrived yesterday. It was double
wrapped in plastic, and was a bear to struggle up the steps.
The old one went bye-bye, and I cut the plastic off. Honestly
it was about 3 inches thick. "uh-oh." Then it started to "grow"
to full size. Last night I slept like the dead. It was great. It
does have a chemical smell, but it has already started to go
away. It was a good move to get the 10 inch, and not the 14
inch- none of my sheets would have fit the thing. Overstock
dot com is the way to go!

Tom stopped by yesterday. He asked who the problem person
was. Surprised, weren't you? You're right. Too bad Jeff isn't
around us anymore. I miss my son. Regardless, we all
change. This change is just horrific. It makes one want to
give up on humanity. There isn't a whole lot I wouldn't do
or give to fix it. It is something I can't get my head to
comprehend. Enough.

Saturday I got some curried eggplant at Trader Joe's. It's
all but addictive. Speaking of addictions, I will admit there
are two currently in my life. Trader Joe's, and pickles.
Trader Joe's because they always have good stuff cheap,
and pickles- I like the sour? I guess. It's better than other
things I could be eating. Mox Nix. Their coffee is better
than Starbucks (and less expensive), Middle Eastern
foods, real Greek Yogurt,and things you don't get elsewhere.
Yeahhhhhh, I likes it.

Each week I send the parents their mail via FedEx. This year
it costs as much to send it two-day as it did overnight last
year. It's worth every penny not to have them around.

Okay- gotta scoot!

Different day, different delay!

This week has been plagued with delays. Not your standard
20 minute pain-in-the-butt kind either, eight plus hours. It's
the thing that makes me nuts.

We had some snow today. It didn't stick, however it was nice
to watch . . I guess . . If we don't get any more this winter it
will be sufficient for me.

FedEx just sent me an email that my new mattress has been
delivered to the house. That will be tonights chore to swap
the old and the new. Some house cleaning, laundry, and tidy
up business will occupy the evening. AND send the kids their
mail in South Carolina.

The "problem" friend hasn't spoken to me in days, well,
unless they want something. It's actually easier not to have
to interact with them at this point. Even though on a rare
occasion the friend appears, the person I knew is gone.

Okay- errand time. Be good children!

Down the Shore

My New-Years-Resolution was to get to know Easton
better. That is where I went today. Grabbed some coffee,
stopped at Trader Joe's, then across the bridge to Easton.
Went to Lu Ev, and bought a small painting. Wandered
the streets, and got Izzy a couple of things, and some more
coffee. Then went back to the gallery to pick-up my new
picture. Guess who I ran into? (You will N-E-V-E-R guess!)
Vice President Dick Cheney! The Secret Service swarmed
the place. Then I noticed some G.O.P. Senators in hunting
gear. When asking in a shop if they were Hillary hunting,
I got a disapproving look. :)

Another friend has dropped off of my radar. A friend from
Church, and a vacation "bud" has essentially walked away from
their life. While I fully understand . . it's still unpleasant. I
have mentioned them before as a couple in the middle of
dissolving their relationship. Sad, but true. What are you
gonna do in this situation?? Nothing you can do. Watch, it
will end up being me who is the bad guy.

One of my "chores" while the parents are away is to be the
"church taxi" for one of their friends. Had I known she was
going to blow off the holy-holy tomorrow, I would have stayed
in Easton overnight. SCHEISSE!!! She waits until late in the
day to tell me, and then it's too late to salvage the day/night.

12 days until the make-it-or-break-it event. Sadly, I am
all but willing to bet that the "test" is failed, and the outcome
will be "Nagasaki." 'nuff said on that.

I wanna move to the shore, and start over.


Abend.

End of an era

Tonight was Icelandair's last flight from BWI. While it's
difficult to see a carrier leave, one that I have sort of an
emotional attachment to is crushing. My great friend Lis
won't be around to play with anymore. While I know the
plan is to stay close and in touch, realistically she'll get a
different job, and we'll drift apart. My dear, you're so very
important to me, you know I don't want that. When the
plane left, I was only able to watch from a distance. This
was a funeral, not a circus. It just went from bad to worse.

Yesterday another friend called and told me something
totally horrific. Without going into detail, it shocked, and
made my head spin. I felt so terrible. I wouldn't have
had the strength or backbone to to have survived such
an experience.

The problem friend in my life is drowning in whatever
his issues are. On occasion the person that was there
resurfaces. The person I came to respect and admire
sneaks out. Obviously he needs serious help. Getting
it for him will be the trick.

Without a doubt, the last 24 hours have been some of
the most trying times in about the last fifteen years.
My head hurts, my stomach hurts, I didn't sleep last
night. If things don't change soon, guess who's gonna
snap? They say God only give you as much as you
can take. Stop please. I'm grieving the important
people in my life that are being taken away from me.

In the mail tonight was a letter from "The Black
Republicans" addressed to me. Okay, who signed me
up for that???? I'd say it's John Withrow.

Gonna try to sleep. 'abend.

Ann's

Today was lunch from Ann's. I couldn't take it any longer.
The stores guy went with me, and was amazed at the ladies
taking complicated orders, and never writing a thing down.

Last night I went out with Lis. She made me misbehave,
hence the need for food from Ann's today. We did have a
good time. We always have a good time.

Upon arriving at work I received a Christmas gift. It was
extremely generous- more than I expected. I won't go
into it.

It's another super nice day out, so I'm gonna split pretty
soon. Laundry to do, vacuuming to do, dishwasher to
empty and put away, and floors to mop. I'm obviously
totally domesticated.

Be good!

Lighthouse of Rhodes

Tonight I'm making chicken and wild rice soup with cremini
mushrooms. The house smells great, and the soup is getting
nice and thick. It should be really good.

A little bit ago I was outside, and the folks across the street
have their house lit up like the lighthouse of Rhodes.
Christmas lights everywhere. I wonder if BG&E send them
a thank-you card. Regardless, it's super duper white trash.
I've been tempted to "do" the house for Christmas, but my
cheap sensibilities kick in, and I resist. Not to mention I don't
wanna climb up on the roof!

My brother emailed me to say that yesterday was the best
day he's had in about a year. That made me feel really good.
We did have a great time. Lord, do I love Talbot County.
The history, the water, and the "being away" factor all
make it a favorite place. One thing for 2008 is a self made
promise to make Easton a priority this year.

Shannon and I have been text messaging like crazy today.
We are so similar. No wonder we often clash. She and I
deal with the same trash each and every day. Expectations
that are heaped upon us are almost crushing. Many of
these expectations are self inflicted, I fear.

I'm watching some guy try to eat Durian on TV. He has the
same reaction as do I. That is one thing that I refuse to go
near.

Tante Annegret called me today unfortunately I was cutting
onions in the kitchen and missed the call. Scheisse. I will
need to call her.

Why can I type what I cannot say? That is the question for
the year . . . . . . .

Be good!!!!!!!!!!!!

Down the shore

Ken (the older brother) went to the Eastern shore with me
today. Oddly enough, it seems we were virtually the only
ones there (besides some French folks: Seb knows what I
mean!), which was even stranger. They spoke nice crisp,
clean French, just like you Seb!

Ana-way, we were the only ones in the Bridge Restaurant.
The Oxford-Bellevue Ferry is not running. Every store in
St. Michaels was 50% off. It was sort of surreal. Even the
merchants were saying that it was beyond odd that no one
was in the area. The one store offered me a much greater
discount for cash. Mr. Owner said it was "beyond bad" as
far as business right now. Odd, n'est pas??

Frank just called me. Odd how someone I worked with
(past tense) is so nice to me. Makes me feel good that
someone cares. Seems to me that we fail to see the forest
for the trees. Certainly I am guilty of that. Frequently
we only see what we want to, and not what is really there
for us. The decision still awaits it's fate. In my heart I
already know the outcome - yet refuse to acknowledge
the facts involved, or the associated truth. My ONLY
comfort is to know (after being repeatedly told and told
again and again and again) it's not me. In the last week
I've had two folks roll in and give me a bear hug to let
me know they care about me. Thanks folks, it means
sooooo much!

Okay getting late, so I need to scoot.

'abend!

Madame Returns

Mac, Susan, and Izzy have returned from Bozeman.
She has REALLY made me see what's what. I just
wrote something that is rather profound: "Most
people are not worth the time and effort we put into
being pissed off at them." Practice what you preach
Justus.

The decision I need to make had the first test passed
today. Yes, I was surprised. I loathe those who
either chose to or are unable to properly communicate.
This said individual simply doesn't know how.

Saturday (tomorrow) is a trip to the Eastern Shore.
My older brother and myself are gonna scoot over to
the shore as a mid-winter treat. We have no plan as
what to do, but we're going.

Okay- gonna have a long hot soak in the tub, then
read some of the book I'm working on. Sleep, and
a brisk walk in the park before blast off to Eastern
Maryland in the hond-er.

Be good!

Neu year

Christmas is a rapidly fading memory. Gott sie Dank!

Tom has been a bad boy, and has failed to post for quite
some time. When you read this, let me know about the
orientation for next week.

The "decision" I need to make is approaching. Allow me
to say that two things will make or break what is going on.
One will transpire tomorrow (1-4-08) and the other in
twenty days. Allow to say that it's wearing very thin,
and it's gotta be dealt with.

Yesterday I got my airport badge renewed. Rather than
point out the errors and out-of-date information, I was
a good child and kept my mouth shut. It was also the first
time someone remembered to ask about my security key
for the SIDA door. Uh Huh.

Last night was dinner in Annapolis. Prime Rib of Beef
was truly "prime" beef. We killed all 6lbs of it. There
was also a tasty mushroom bread pudding (think stuffing
here kids)- and oven roasted root vegetables. A nice
red wine (vintage 1982) was included in the festivities.
Dessert was a sour cream chocolate cake with a ganache
frosting. I'm still not hungry 12 hours later!

Tonight is trash night- recycle, trash, and whatever gets
out to the curb will be gone in the morning.

When will spring get here????